My dear, sweet Grandma Ginny,
You know that saying~ once in a while, right in the middle of ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale? Turns out…life can throw us some pretty hefty curveballs, too.
My brain knows that you are happily in Heaven. That you are joyfully reunited with your husband who has been waiting patiently for you for sixteen years. My brain appreciates that you didn’t suffer + that it’s a blessing that in just a mere 24 hours, you went from a feisty 90-year-old on earth to a peaceful angel in Heaven.
But my heart.
You are woven into so many of our childhood memories. Thursdays remain a special day to all four of us grandkids, because that was our day with you + Papa. Adventures + pool days during the summers, tasty after-school snacks + homework help during the elementary + high school years.
You, on the sideline of so many basketball + volleyball games while we were growing up, no matter how painful it was to watch.
You, yelling at the refs at Jenna’s soccer games, telling them they better get glasses so they had a chance of actually seeing the ball.
You, making St. Patrick’s Day a holiday of epic celebratory proportions. Lots of Shamrock Shakes were happily consumed by your grandchildren on your watch~ all while wearing your signature color of green.
You, a staple for every holiday concert, graduation, and later in life~ weddings for the three of us girls + college graduation celebrations for all four of us.
You’ve held each of your great-grandchildren + we’ve watched as you tearfully, gleefully count their itty, chubby fingers + toes. You’d hold our hands + eyes shining, happily recall the day you counted Dad’s fingers + toes in the hospital, and each of our fingers + toes decades later.
The shrine of pictures at your house was an on-going source of endearment. You always called us~ positively thrilled~ when you had new pictures of the family to put up. I make everyone who stops by take a look at my pictures!, you’d proclaimed proudly. I can’t remember that door not being completely covered in pictures. Grandkids, great-grandkids, great- grand-dogs~ all displayed prominently with love.
God has been so good to me, you’d frequently tell us. It was your anthem.
And now that you’re gone~ I think perhaps you had it backwards. God has been so good to us, for giving our family a grandmother so spunky, so sweet, so full of stubbornness + life + joy + love that everyone who met you was charmed to pieces by you.
You slipped from this world so quickly, so unexpectedly. We’re all still reeling from the gap that is now in our brains, the void that is hurting our hearts.
The curveball that life threw us this week happened so fast that my sisters + I couldn’t get home in time to be with my parents + brother + aunt + uncle as they helped release you from this world. I desperately wish that my last words to you hadn’t been over the phone~ but I’m so thankful I had the chance to whisper words of love to you one last time.
I’m sure you could hear the baby babbling in the background + the older girls fluttering around me as I sobbed through my goodbyes. I hope it made your heart smile~ you always said their little voices brightened up your day tremendously.
Finally~ when my words were done + Dad promised to give you a kiss from all of us + the line was disconnected~ the tears couldn’t be stopped. My little girls brought me a cup of water, a plate of crackers + wrapped me up in a blanket. They touched the tears on my face as they asked me:
Mommy, is Grandma Ginny in Heaven? Is she an angel yet?
Yes, sweet girls. She’s going to Heaven right now.
Then why are you sad? She can watch over us as an angel now, right?
Out of the mouth of babes.
Please watch over us from time to time, Grandma Ginny. Thank you for being such a force of love + goodness in our lives. The world is a better place because of you, and we can already see bits of your firery stubbornness in all three of our daughters. I love it. And it will always make me think of you.
I love you with all of my heart. I’m so thankful that you are at peace, even though we all miss you so desperately here on Earth.
Enjoy Heaven, sweet Grandma Ginny. I hope you are dancing up there right now with your love.
Counting My Kisses: I’m all out of words…but feeling so incredibly thankful for our wonderful support system of family + friends. Thank you all for the love + prayers these past few days. It’s wonderful hearing all the stories of the lives Grandma Ginny touched~ it truly is bringing peace to our family as we say goodbye. xo